First of all, your girl is a second year practicing lawyer now wuhuu!
I know that it might not be a very important or interesting matter to you guys (or anyone else) but it is significant to me. I take my work very seriously and I put so much passion and efforts to it so to see how far I have come in this field and looking back to all my so called work achievements, that really means a lot. So Idk I guess just bare with me because every 17th August (literally every year), I will be counting my anniversary okay, I'm not even kidding hahaha.
Looking back, I honestly learn a lot on how to be a good lawyer and most of the time, I'm quite glad that I am in this profession because it does help me to look at life in different ways and I have to admit that my legal knowledge do help me in dealing with my everyday life (or problems). I'm not saying that oh everyone should go study law, be a lawyer oh my god it's the best profession in this world, nay nay! If I ever said that being a lawyer is the best profession in this world pffff I must be kidding myself. A lot of times throughout my life, I regretted my decision and I doubted about it. Am I good enough for this? Do I have what it takes to be a good lawyer? Is this for me? Why is my submission never perfect?
Well, you know me and my self doubts moments are inseparable but honestly, someway somehow along the way I learnt that it's okay and it's completely normal to feel like that and to have doubts in what you're doing. Regardless of the profession or line of work you're in or even if you're still in school or university, it's okay. Just take your time, enjoy yourself, work hard and improve yourself at your own pace.
My work at Gibb & Co has always been a blessing, I know that I say this all the time but that's the truth. I love my work and honestly, some parts of it are because of the firm I'm in and the people I work with. Work or cases are challenging in their own way. When I was in my first year, I thought that oh it's okay Liyana, once you're more experienced then things will be easier for you. Turns out...it's not! Every case is different, as in different facts, different application of the law and they require different arguments hence you need to always improve your knowledge. When I was in my first year, things were difficult because of my lack of experiences. At the very beginning, I wasn't sure what to do and all so my partners have to guide me a lot until I can stand and manage things on my own. Now, I'm in my second year and honestly, some things or cases are still difficult because I am now being exposed to a more challenging cases. I notice that this year, I actually did a lot of new type of cases/applications, those I was never exposed to before. Was it difficult? Of course. But it is undeniably fun and challenging so I think I'm pretty good.
Sometimes when I'm stressed and I had to stay in office till night, I do question my choice to be in this profession. But then at the same time, it's crazy that I don't see myself doing something else than being a practicing lawyer. At least for now. Honestly, if I can turn back time hmm I will still choose to be a lawyer, it's just that I hope I was a bit smarter and a bit more brave but well it's okay, I'm improving and that's the most important for me right now.
Congratulations to myself! You push through everything, every obstacles, every hateful remarks and see, you did it! I know that this is just a beginning and you will achieve more greater things in future. I'm super proud, can't wait to celebrate your 20th anniversary as a lawyer. To more happy glory days!
Thanks!
