You know sometimes when you're negative, you feel like you have wasted huge chunks of your life doing mundane things and you haven't achieve much? I felt that sometimes.
Some days, I felt like for a 29 year old, I haven't done anything that I'm proud of, ones I can share with my grandchildren when I'm old and grey. Then I thought to myself "did we really not achieve anything in this life?", "did we really live a boring life so far?".
The thing is, I kinda love my current mundane slow life. The problem is I used to love being busy hectic 24/7 until I get older and I realize when I move too fast, I actually have more regrets than I thought like how I didn't realize that my mum is getting older because I spent most of my time working and making a career for myself. I wished I would have slowed down a bit then maybe I can enjoy my life more, the people around me more. Maybe because I used to feel like oh by 25 years old, I need to do this, I need to do that, oh I want this, I want that. You know all the unrealistic expectations that I. Don't get me wrong, it's good to be ambitious, to hustle and to want more and more, it makes me work hard. Even till this day, I still feel ambitious and the need to work hard because I still have dreams and things that I want to achieve.
However, as I get older, I realize that there is really no such thing as timeline. There is no rules that you have to have a stable job by 25 or you need to at least own a house by 30. No such thing. The idea that you have to achieve this and that by for example before you're 30 is just a play or an illusion, or maybe an idea taught to us since we are small. No one is in competition with you, in fact the only competition you have is the one with your heads, the ones that you set for yourself. I also realize that a lot of people that I adore or look up to, didn't even achieve what they currently have by rushing into things or work their ass off like there's no tomorrow. Most of them achieve what they have with perseverance and hard work.
"Slow down" - that's what they told me.
Slow down, be calm and look around you. Sometimes we missed a lot of things because we are too focus on moving things too quickly.
I love my life. The life where I have a stable job, I have a husband who loves me, our little house, I get to eat what I want, the life where I have time to pursue my studies and improve my knowledge, the life where I can still watch my Netflix at night and the life where I get to sit on our couch in the evening while watching the sun sets in between our curtain.
That's the life I love, my happy life.
