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Sunday, 30 November 2014

Love story part 1

Let's be honest.

I think I'm in love. What? I know macam over gila tiba tiba dah lama tak update blog tapi tiba cakap dah in love. Actually, I like this one guy, he's a friend of mine. Not that close friend yang you can share everything ke apa ke, just a normal guy friend. In fact I haven't met him since years pun. He's a good man I think but of course love is not easy especially as a lady you have pride and ego that you have to maintain. I can't just go out there and out of nowhere "Hey you I think I like you" lepas tu blah macam tu sambil tutup muka. Not that simple. I won't do that, not in a million years even if you pay me. I don't know whether he likes me or not hmm ehem I mean I don't even know whether he aware that I exist. Last few days, I had a dream, a very weird dream. In this dream, I macam like engaged to him and the worst part is because I was too excited that my 'so called fiancee' is that guy I was terjatuh yang macam sujud tu in front of so many people kot. Luckily it was a dream, but hmm it was a good dream by the way. But then not that I believe in such dream but I was happy tapi yelah mimpi jer pun it was just mainan tidur and a wise man should not believe in dreams kan. So be wise, liyana. It was just mainan syaitonnnn.

Personally I don't know whether this is love or just a pure temporary admiration that I usually have on guys. For the time being I'll just pray for the best and I hope that if he's really the right guy for me Allah will find his way to unite us. Cehh ayat geli ahh kau cakap macam ni ewwww. Tapi tu lah, I know that my Lord might have better plans for me, better guy maybe.

"If it's destined for you, never in a million years will it be for somebody else".


Clue: He's not a law student jeng jeng

Wednesday, 22 October 2014

#2

Nak cakap something ni,

Honestly speaking, kita semua ada setan dalam diri kita. No offense, tapi aku rasa inside each and every one of us there's some kind of evil. And setan tu tak semestinya dalam bentuk the real setan yang selama ni kita duk imagine dalam kepala (bertanduk, warna hitam merah or etc), boleh jadi setan yang ada dalam diri kita ni just dalam bentuk spirit atau dalam bahasa mudahnya, dalam bentuk imaginasi/unreal macam nafsu, kata hati yang jahat, perasaan tak baik, hasad dengki dan sebagainya. Alaa, semua orang ada evil dalam diri masing-masing tak perlu nak bagitau semua orang yang kau tu jahat dan pada masa yang sama tak perlu lah kot nak sembunyikan kejahatan tu dan berlagak macam malaikat sebab memang secara fitrahnya kita semua sama. Cuma mungkin tahap evil dalam diri masing masing dapat dikurangkan atau mungkin  lebih depends on cara kau handle it and kita semua tahu cara paling efektif nak menangani this evil inside us is by iman and taqwa.

Contoh macam ada kawan kau dapat pointer 4 flat padahal kau rasa dia bukannya pandai sangat pun, kadang-kadang kau lagi hebat jer pun haha. Kira dengki la ni. Kalau kau tak tangani rasa dengki kau tu mungkin kau akan buat benda benda bodoh macam pergi sebar fitnah cakap dia meniru dalam exam, conteng nota dia atau kau akan kacau dia study dengan buat bising macam monyet dalam hutan which is aku rasa sangat lah mentality budak empat tahun. Tapi kalau kau tahu the right way to handle the evil, the jealousy, kau akan tahu yang semua benda tu takde faedah pun. So cara positif tak nak bagi dengki ni kau pergi lah study sekali join study group ke apa ke, work hard sama-sama. Baru betul.

Macam nafsu nak membeli yang semakin membuak-buak padahal you don't need that.

Sebenarnya, semua benda dalam dunia ni ada penyelesaian.Tapi yelah, betul jugak kawan aku cakap kalau semua orang atas dunia ni baik and boleh control diri masing masing tak jadi lah isu-isu macam ni, semua orang hidup aman dan tenang. Kalau semua orang tahu macam mana nak handle dia punya evil, dia takkan commit benda-benda yang tak baik. Tapi takpelah kita ni yang masih ada iman (walaupun sikit gila), kita control diri kita dan kita doakan orang lain tu sama sama tuhan jaga dia supaya tiap kali dia nak buat jahat dititipkan hidayah sedikit demi sedikit. Tak mustahil, Allah tu Maha Penyayang. Aku percaya dia takkan biarkan umat dia sesat.

So tu je lah kot, I'll make it clear that I ain't even trying to preach you guys, just a little reminder untuk diri sendiri jugak.Bye.


#1


Helloooo, aku boring and at the same time aku takde 'ghesa' lagi nak menulis panjang lebar.
Mungkin nanti, esok lusa.
Tak janji.