Hi

Hello.

Wow it has been years since my last update (oh well not really years but literally). I was busy with life, studies, finals, hari raya and all. Sometimes I feel stressed because it's quite hard to juggle between everything and I need to find some time for myself in between. But its okay, Alhamdulillah. Things went well, finals went hmm well I did my best already so I'm not going to annoy myself by overthink things, life was okay no big issues, friends are fine. They are all funny, and creepy lulz (that explains my weird mood).

This 27th I will start my internship at the High Court of Kota Bharu, few days left to berjimba-jimba kat rumah. I'm having the time of my life now yahoo sleeping, eating, watching tv. I have mixed feelings about it, you know the idea of me working and handling stuffs on my own is much scarier than it seems. I feel nervous but at the same time I'm excited and kind of look forward to it. Insya Allah I'll do fine. Hmm I will right? You will you will *self meditation*

People have been complaining of my absence, awww *virtual hugs*. But honestly you can always find me online, mostly on twitter. I know that I'm not a facebook kind of person, and I rarely write good stuffs these days but I'm always tweeting about something. So if you need help or something feel free to dm or mention me on twitter. I'll try to reply okay, unless you say stupid things that annoy me then I don't see any obligation for me to respond. I'm actually quite nice hahahahahahaha.

Bye. Oh and since we're still in the mood for raya, Selamat Hari Raya. Have a good one!

The only good selfie of me on the first Syawal, the rest are mehhhhhh :/

Fragile

People around me will always go "you are always so cheerful, its like you never have any problem". Trust me, I do have problems. Maybe mine is greater than yours, I just choose not to care much because hmm I don't know I'm tired.

3 years ago, someone said this:

"You're not that good, you're not pretty either. Your face is full of pimples and you are an ignorant shit. You're so full of yourself (in a bad way) and please what I've been telling you all this while were lies, and you are stupid enough to actually believe them. You are an ignorant stupid person, you can go live your life like that..."

I can never fully write what that person told me because it's so heart breaking and hurtful. They are so rude and it's not something that you should say to a person. And even after all these while, I still have tears in my eyes reading them.That was like the worst moment of my life, being insulted in a way you can't imagine. I thought I've healed. I thought by ignoring them, I will heal. But maybe not, it's true I will never heal. I can never heal. Yes I forgave them years ago, but I can never forget hahaha I can never forget I'll make sure he regret it. If you think you had win, you choose the wrong girl. 

Can't wait for the day we meet at the court, I'll make sure you regret for being such an as*****

People, you have to be careful these days, it's like you can't trust anybody.