Jawapan aku; pelik.
Such a weird feeling. Aku ni dah lama single, dah bertahun tahun dah. Macam tak percaya kan? But to be honest, I've been single through out my degree years and then masa sekolah pun tak pernah couple gak sebab masa tu kononya nak 'focus on my studies' konon laaa. Tapi tu lah masa asasi ter-couple (is this even a word?), I was in a relationship for like less than a year la with this one guy. I don't think I love him anymore but well I used to (tak boleh nak tipu dah come on). We're still friends now and I wish him nothing but the best. Aku terfikir kalau la masa tu aku tak couple ngan sesape memang like wowww aku boleh cipta rekod la as one of the manusia yang stay single.
Jadi disebabkan aku tak pernah or the right words dah lama takde boyfriend, now I feel weird. Macam eh tetiba I have another person I care about. Eh tetiba ada sorang lagi yang I get to share my happiness (and sadness) as well. Eh another ear to listen to me ranting about my problems. I always always love my family, they can never be replaced. And now I have Firdaus, he feels like a family too.
Aku jugak rasa yang love makes me do things I never thought of doing before. Like suddenly you get jealous, suddenly you get clingy, suddenly you feel like marah him for unnecessary stuffs, suddenly you guys fight for small stuffs. Aku mana ada perangai macam tu. If korang kenal aku, and my friends always said I lah manusia yang takde perasaan tau. I never get jealous. I am not clingy at all, I never text people first okay! I don't know about the marah part but I bukan lah seorang pemarah jugak (I think so). Now hmmm feel like I'm being the total opposite of who I am.
Macam minggu ni selang sehari aku gaduh and/or merajuk dengan Firdaus. Hari ni okay, esok tak okay, lusa okay then next day tak okay balik. Eh eh eh. Rasa macam ntah pape jer. Masalahnya kitorang kalau gaduh kejap jer like few hours. Then say sorry semua then okay balik jer sebab ntah la I think we both jenis yang matured tak suka gaduh lama lama, sebab masalah nya bukan besar pun. Bukannya kitorang ada orang ketiga ke apa (kalau bab cheating this one I memang cannot tolerate at all kbye) And I pulak jenis yang believe that everything can be discuss nicely, properly and professionally.
Tapi tu lah walaupun kitorang this week gaduh/merajuk hari-hari, I still love him (and I know he loves me too hahahaha). Weird isn't it?
"Alaa kawan la ngan kite"
"Okay la kite kawan"
Nope that's not Liyana.
That's another side of me, I called her 'Loveyana'.
Ewww. What happened to you girl?
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