Oh shit.
I can't believe that in less than 2 months, I will be a wife. A WIFE? How crazy is that ?!?!?!
If you ask me well I didn't really expect this. I mean when Hilmi told me that he's serious with me and wanted to meet my family, I did know that the we will get married and all one day, but at that time it was just a plan, nothing is yet to be confirmed. Then we got engaged on Christmas last year (25.12.2020), then things got serious. I mean at one time, I know that I'm going to marry this guy yedda yedda but the moment I'm engaged I was like "wow girl, this thing is getting real" but stil at that time, l I had months to go so I didn't really bother.
"It's okay, still got time".
"Ohhh lambat lagi June 2021".
But, now? Hmmmmmm sis is nervous hahahaha.
They say that sometimes things happen unexpectedly. I would say that Hilmi's presence in my life, and my presence in his is one of the unexpected things for us (or at least for me). I wasn't kidding okay when I told my friends and families that I'm ready to spend my whole life alone and be the cool auntie to their kids as marriage was definitely out of my book. I didn't think I will ever get married one day and I was okay with that, serious. I felt like okay I already got a job and honestly, I was looking to buy a house when I first met Hilmi. I just thought that marriage is just not my thing.
Then I met Hilmi. Of course I can go hours and hours (or in the context of blogging: paragraphs and paragraphs) of how much he changed my life, or hmm how much we love each other or he is the love of my life and I can't imagine living without him bla bla bla all those cliche but I didn't plan to do that tonight hahahaha. I think based on my previous posts, people can definitely tell how in love I am right now hihihi. I don't know I think I'm just blessed and everyday I'm grateful and thankful to Allah for this rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Honestly right now, I am still in the midst of preparing for the wedding. I honestly think that I got a lot of stuffs done, but every time I look back I realize that oh my god so many unsettled things! Also, it's quite difficult to plan a wedding in the middle of this pandemic because I'm not sure whether I can have a ceremony or not, or if I can how many people can I invite and stuffs like that. I already told my mum, even if we can't have the gathering/celebration, I'm still getting married on the fixed date because I can't postpone stuffs anymore. Macam selagi tak habis all these marriage stuffs selagi tu hidup I tak tenteram hahaha.
Oh before I end this post, I just want to say that I'm glad that I'm doing all these marriage thingy with Hilmi and not anyone else because he's the most patient and loving guy I've ever come across in my whole life hahaha. The thing with me is that whenever I get stressed, I feel like scolding people. It's not my best quality I'm not proud of it but I just hmmm I guess I'm just crazy like that. But every time I scold Hilmi for no reason or for such small mistakes he made, he is very patient to layan me. I don't think I can do this without him. Okay, now I feel like the bad guy hmmmm oh well, he chose me so tough luck huh?
Anyone who's reading this, please make dua for us. Hopefully everything will be smooth sailing and our marriage is blessed diberkati oleh Allah S.W.T. Thank you.
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