2016

Hi,

In a way, aku rasa macam loser gak la sebab dah almost 20 hari 2016 then baru terkedek-kedek nak update blog hahaha. Orang lain malam tahun baru tu terus lepas countdown and bunga api terus menghadap laptop update pasal azam baru and all. Shame on you sis. Tapi nak buat macam mana, I was busy with my finals starting from 28th December until 15th January hari tu. Tau la kan kalau dah exam macam mana, diri sendiri pun tak terurus hahaha ada days yang aku rasa macam nak gi jawab exam tak mandi and pakai baju tidur jer. Tapi bila aku fikir-fikir balik, just lupakan jer niat tu ada ke nak pakai baju tidur tak mandi pleasezz la liyana hahaha plus I read somewhere what you wear during you exam actually influences your mood. If pakai malas-malas, then mood pun akan down and if you choose to wear colourful and dress up sikit, there's tendency that your mood akan okay sikit and you'll feel better. Takde lah suruh kau pakai bling bling menyilau nak jawab exam pun tak boleh pulak tau. 

So kira the fact yang aku finally update something ni okay gak lah. Biasanya after final exams aku akan ambik masa like one or two weeks untuk tidur and rehat jer. Tak fikir apa, tak keluar mana-mana, tak contact kawan-kawan. Just my pesonal time with my movies and drama. Haa time ni biasa nya memang Iolzz tak keluar bilik, siap lah movie marathon dengan korean drama marathon lol. 

Sebenarnya, dah 22 tahun aku malas dah nak kisah pasal azam ke apa. Bagi aku as long as aku hidup as a good person, good daughter, good friend, good student dah la and as long as aku tak give up in pursuing my dreams, then that should be my biggest accomplishment. Malas nak kecoh-kecoh fikir pasal life goals bagai and azam yang tak pernah nak dapat capai. Biasalah aku ni jenis awal-awal semangat, belakang-belakang hampeh. Lagi pun aku rasa banyak sangat benda nak buat dalam hidup ni, aku tak rasa aku dapat list out everything in this short time. That's why these days I choose to be realistic. Just do your best in everything and have faith in yourself, then you're halfway there. 

So my hope in 2016 ni senang jer, kau jangan la mudah nak give up liyana. Kau dah nak habis belajar dah tinggal 3 sem jer lagi. Aku tau la law tak senang, kadang-kadang (actually most of the time) kau rasa macam nak give up and what the heck am I doing with my life bagai but ingat macam ni je lah if kau tak usaha sekarang later kau akan menyesal. You will wish you can turn back time and of course takde negara yang berjaya develop the time mechaine yet so kalau kau tak buat betul betul sekarang, siap la kau nanti. You have to work hard liyana because you like expensive things. And kau jenis yang selalu nak keep your pride on so it might be hard if you have no means to support yourself right? Senang cerita just work hard like you always did. Don't worry much, you are doing fine though.

Last year aku cakap kat kawan-kawan aku before 2016 aku nak jugak ada boyfriend hahahha bongok punya perangai. Maybe time tu aku dah tahap loner dah nak mati kot. Biasa lah konon dah 21 kot takkan nak hidup single sampai sudah sebab masa aku sekolah dulu aku cakap aku nak ada boyfirend once aku dah 21. Ni dah 22 and dah 2016, masih single dan mereput sorang-sorang hahaha pasrah jap. Lagi pasrah bila parents kau keep on tanya kau dah ada boyfriend belum and kau cakap takde, tapi diorang macam 'yekeeeeee'. And bila kau mengadu ke singleness kau kat kawan-kawan, diorang macam question apesal kau single and kena cop 'memilih sangat' which is tak. Aku tak memilih langsung. Takde masa nya aku nak judge orang bagai. Aku tak kisah la pasal that guy handsome ke tak sedar la sikit, kau pun tak cantik mana pun hahahaha. Tak pernah pun cakap  kau kena muka macam artis korea dulu baru datang dekat aku, the heckkkk. Bagi aku as long as hati mu mulia and tulus, kira okay lah. And jangan nak mengongkong and kacau aku nak study malam-malam, dah cukup perfect dah. Dah la liyana jangan nak rant on kau punya loneliness kat sini dah, kat twitter cukup. 

Byee.

Taken on 31st December, kira okay lah one day before new year.