Finding my motivation

I must have lost my motivation somewhere because right after the final exam ends, I somehow lost my will and soul to live. My last paper was two days ago, and the only thing I did was probably eat, watch movies/series,  hang out with few friends, sleep and repeat those three things unconditionally. I hope this lifeless-state of mine is temporary though. I hope the reason why I feel so lazy and demotivated about everything is because I'm still tired, my body can't adapt well yet. Well I did went out with couple of friends to mall and favorite eateries but still I feel some sort of loss and awkwardness, probably because I'd used to spent my days with books, trying to remember all the cases and worrying how the questions going to turn out, and yeah praying and wishing with all my heart that I won't forget important stuffs during exams.

During the exam weeks, all I ever wanted was to end the struggle, this semester was so tough with 7 killer subjects. I was totally drained. All I ever wished was to go home, enjoy my break with my family, eat good food and just you know have enough sleep like others (only sleep for 2 3 hours during finals *sad*) But now as finals had come to an end, I feel a little bit weird.  For instance, I used to sleep around 1 or 2 am in the morning then woke myself up for the next few hours to continue my revision. I used to complain how fast my night was, I mean I just spent few hours to study but its already 12 am, or I thought I was resting for 5 minutes but it has been thirty,  you get what I mean? Now that I don't have anything to compel myself to, I found myself having too much 'free time' like ample lots of free time. They say time flies but I kind of doubt that these days. They must have lost their wings somewhere and have no other option rather than to walk with their own foots.

So the past few days, I figured out one important lesson. One, what you really wanted is not necessarily what you need. We'd always be less grateful with what we have, always think someone have it better than us. We failed to realize the fact that maybe what we have right now is the best for us, at least. The only thing I wanted was to end the final so that I can have fun and get my so called normal life back, but in the end I realize maybe to end that not as fun as I expected. What is normal by the way? Is not having exams normal? Maybe to have tests, assignments to be submitted, to feel chocked up and stressed because work keep piling up is the normal one. And not having anything to do is the odd one? Don't you think so? Sometimes you set your expectations high, but in reality it's not as good as what you expected. That's when you figured out you wants might not be what you actually need.

I guess I should end this here, dah terlampau banyak mengarut. I hope I pass all the papers and can continue with my final year (LLB). Please pray for me, thank youuuu.

Yes, the pictures were taken right after I finished my last paper, that explains the ugly face expressions pff.