Crooked people

Today I'm going to talk about hatred. 

I know tomorrow is raya and I should write something cheerful, positive and you know just good things in general but I think for some reasons I need to clarify on this matter. So few weeks ago, I had this sayat account where you know people are allowed to post anonymous comments on your profile. The idea was to say whatever in your mind, what you think about that person and how you perceived him/her. So for me, I think it's a good medium to express your feelings especially if you feel like you can never talk to that person in real life. This is the chance. I did ask some questions to several people who I adore and their answers were pretty helpful. I asked about their skincare routine, study tips and etc.

So on my sayat, there's few hateful comments about me. I mean I don't mind people expressing their thoughts, how they feel about me and stuffs because that is the purpose of such medium at the first place. Don't get me wrong, I do cherish honest and intellectual talks. I'm okay with people criticizing me because I know that I am not perfect so yes do enlighten me if you think there's something wrong with my attitude or the way I carry myself. I'm all good for honest and constructive opinions. However, what bothers me most is those comments/questions that were aimed to attack me. I'm not this little girl who gets emotional reading hateful comments because I know if people point out something, I shall look within. There might be something wrong with me. I try my very best to stay calm and positive but sometimes I just can't. There's few comments that were too ridiculous and shocking. When I read them I was like "my god what's wrong with these people". That's just how absurd the comments/statements posted. Okay,I get it you can say whatever you want but that doesn't mean you can be rude, right?

But recently, I decided to deactivate my account and the main reason why I did so was when I found people start commenting or attacking on my family. At that time, I was like okay I cannot do this anymore. This is too much. You're not even in my shoes and you didn't went through what we did, do you think you're in a position to say anything? But really it's so sad to see how petty humans can be? And the most scary part is those who posted the hateful comments/statements can be the people around me who act like they're angels when the truth is the opposite. It's a super scary world. How can people be so crooked anyway?

I'm not sure why some people hate me. Probably because they think you don't deserve what you have right now. But honestly I don't get the point, everything I have today didn't come easy. In fact, I fight and have to work my butt off to have them. Everything including my friends, my family, the love I get from everyone and even all the material things I have were obtained with perspiration. After everything that happened, I decided to knock it off, I don't care anymore. You can say whatever you want since its your right but I'm going to ignore all the hate comments. In the end, nothing matters except yourself.

"Do not let their words grieve you"- Surah Yunus: Verse 65


(I wrote this months ago, I'm at the point where I decided to publish all the drafts I have kept. So you might find me posting so many posts in one day, and some of them might seem old or quite sensitive. Sorry)