Time will heal everything

My darling, he's just a boy.

I keep telling myself  "Girl, never let a confused man waste your time or energy". I repeat this over and over like a tender ritual, hoping that I can wash you away from me. But it's sickening and annoying how you crossed my mind every second every minute of the day.  I hate some part of me right now because everything I did reminds me of you, or the thoughts of you.

Why do I find memories of you at one of my favourite eateries? Why do I find you in all the love songs played in my car? Why do all the books I read remind me of you? Why do I see you in all my favourite singers? Why is that everything I do reminds me of you.

I had thoughts like how amazing we can be, I mean we could be extraordinary.

Stop. I keep telling myself to stop thinking of you, but the attachment is strong. You shouldn't be this important, you were only there for few months and I on the other hand have been in charge of my life for 23 years. You shouldn't matter much, you should be nothing. My friends keep telling me to stop torturing myself by thinking of you and how I shouldn't be doing this. Guys I'm not torturing myself. In fact I didn't plan for this, its not that I intentionally think about the guy who ruins my heart. It just happens.

But friends, trust me. Time will heal everything. One day, I'll look at him and feel absolutely nothing.

Again, girl; he's just a boy and most importantly he's just a memory.