So as you guys know, I had ended my law school journey somewhere in June/August last year. However, the convocation was only held recently which was on last Wednesday 11.04.2018 (going to remember this for the rest of my life hahahaha). Well actually I don't know why but it's almost like a culture that UiTM convocation will take place like months after you finish your degree. I mean well I'm not really complaining and to be honest, I'm not in the position to complain after all (even though I wait 8 months for my convocation) because I understand that such huge event would require a lot of hard work and planning beforehand. So yeah, I'm not bitter about it. In fact, I'm so thankful that at least we have the convocation going on because I get to meet all of my lovely friends, those I haven't see since the last 8 or 9 months? Plus, going back to Shah Alam and UiTM to be specific really makes me feel nostalgic. I mean I spent 4 years studying in Shah Alam of course I miss the place. Feel like I have memories at every corner, every restaurants, every mamak and every streets there. Good old days.
The convocation was fun and enjoyable. Everyone was so happy and smiling throughout the event. It was joyful and meaningful. It's the one day to celebrate the graduates who'd been through a lot of hardships and struggles for that one piece of certificate. When I was a student, I used to question myself a lot like 'is this really worth it?". I mean it's easy to doubt things including yourself when you're young, vulnerable and tired. I used to question what I did, I mean I was not sure whether these are going to work or is it really worth it. Worth what? Worth all the sleepless nights studying for exams, worth all the time I'd spent studying, reading and hafal all the cases, worth all the tears I had every time I failed any test or scored pretty badly in the exams, worth all the steps, efforts and sw I had to make every morning panjat bukit to bangunan AL? Is it worth all the efforts to keep myself awake in the 2-3 hours lecture, is it worth all the money that my parents had invested on me? Will it be okay?
When I was studying, I question these a lot. After so many years, I finally had my answer. Yes, it is worth it. It is going to be worth it. That one piece of paper worth everything you can ever imagine. So I don't know how to explain it but if I can revert back time I won't tell my old self to quit because "its just a certificate anyway" instead I would tell my old self to hang it there, you're doing just fine and you'll be fine. I'm not saying that if you have your degree, you can do everything, the world is at your palm, you can move mountains bla bla bla those are to be honest not true at all! Then why is it worth it? Because for me that certificate is not about you know oh I finally graduated, I'm a lawyer now instead its a symbol of perseverance and hard work. It doesn't make me proud with the fact that I'm a law graduate but it makes me proud that I managed to win over everything and finally graduated. It's no secret that I've been through a lot of shit in my life and I'm so proud that regardless of the shitty things that I've been through, I still manage to graduate on time and with an okay result. I have my moments of weakness just like anyone else but overall I'm a pretty tough cookie. I pride myself on my determination and effort to beat my life obstacles, and not allow them to beat me. So yeah your girl is happy and proud :)
I am also blessed with amazing support system; my family and friends. I won't consider my journey as a one man show instead my family and some amazing lovely friends have been the backbone of everything. They're the ones who keep pushing me to my fullest, who encourage me to do my very best and to always shower me with their endless love and support. To my family specifically my mum, thank you for being so supportive of my dreams. I'm super super thankful for that. To all my younger sisters helloooo your Kak Long finally made it guys! Hahahahaha. I say this all the time but those friends I met throughout my high school and law school journey gosh how should I describe them? They're probably the loveliest and kindest people I've ever meet. I can be stupid at times, but I'm so thankful that despite all my perangai and stupidity, they're so patient and kind to help. There were days where I were literally lacking emotionally, I was so tired, I had a lot of work to finish and assignments to be submitted and I had no money to survive but thank god they always offer me their hands. In fact I have friends who actually scold me for not leaning on them more often and I have friends who drop everything for me in times when I do reach for them. I always and forever will thank god for these blessings.
I want to write more but I think hmmm this is pretty long already. So I have to end this here. If your name is not mentioned here but you know that you've been supporting me and helping me at times when I was in need, please don't feel bad about yourself. I'm really really sorry for that.My bad. Unfortunately, I'm also a human and I tend to forget sometimes. I mean I try to make this as general as I can because if I have to list everyone and everything, this post is going to be super long. Whoever you are out there who'd been rooting for me, supporting, praying and loving me for the last 24 years, thank you so much. I won't be here without all of you. Thank you. Really, thank you so so much.
And here are the pictures I had taken with my family and friends before, during and after my graduation:
Hopefully, this is the beginning of higher and greater achievements. Aminn.
Thanks:)
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