2015

John Green, Looking for Alaska.

Hello everyone,

Its 2015 yeayy we're getting older yeayy we can do what ever we want yeayy it's the age of freedom yeayyy. Honestly nope, it's not total freedom yet not until err excuse me do they really have total freedom? Okay never mind. 

I can't believe that its a new year. I mean everything feels like yesterday just can't believe that I'm 21 now. Wow, time flies man.I mean yesterday you were 20, last week you were 17 then zapp you're 21. I don't know whether I should be happy or excited with this new beginning but for sure I do feel a little bit sad and regret because maybe I'm getting older but another thing that bothers me most is I think I haven't done anything great to humanity as a whole. I don't think that I contribute enough to the community than I should be doing. If only I can spare more time with something beneficial rather than go to school, met up with people, sleep, eat, study and that's it That's why one of my hopes and goals for 2015 is for me to open up to the world and reach to other parts of the system that I haven't been able to experience. Insya Allah. I don't want to spend my youth doing nothing and at the end of the day regretting everything. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy my life, my friends and I, we do great stuffs too but I just want to you know do better things, mingle with more good people and enjoy life the way I should. I even thought of participating into more charity works. Yeah I would like to try that lah.

I don't really set up specific goals for 2015 probably because I know myself so well. Based on my experiences since the past 5 or 6 years, I am that type of person who is very eager and high at the beginning but towards the end, I will lost my sense then everything goes ups and downs. You won't imagine what happened but to be short, I kind of messed up everything haha.  So settling up specific goals is something that I did when I was in high school, it didn't work for me anymore. I don't want to have a 'must-do-list' or something like that because at the end I might achieve none of that. Maybe it would be better if I just go with the flow but make sure that I always on the right track towards my success. In my opinion, the most important thing is to know what you want in life, be consistent and work for it. So if you ask me my 'azam' for 2015 that is my answer, I set none but I focus more on achieving my previous goals  that I kept pent up inside since years.

You're 21, I wish you would act like a lady haha and stop thinking that you are young and it's okay to do stupid stuffs and all because honestly at this age, it's not okay. I think people will start taking you serious so come one liyana let's be a little bit decent alright. And ops one more thing, let's find a good guy to marry the one you love with all your heart. 

Good year, Insya Allah.

The most memorable and important people in life will be the families and friends who love me so much even though I know that I'm not very lovable haha. Thank you so mush for all the efforts and supports.